I
see his shadow as he walks around the house, playing in the sunshine pouring
through the open windows. He throws diffused light from his sandy fur,
alternately brightening and darkening the ivory walls and honeyed hardwood
floor. His footsteps, inaudible in the grass and sand of the outdoors, ring out
here, reminding of his presence with a comforting rhythm. He knows just when to
jump up next to me for a gentle smoothing of his fur, just how to turn so I will
pet him at just the right angle, and how to bite gently enough so that I know
he is not truly angry. He watches the sunrise each morning, and always greets
me cheerfully with a chirp I am always pleasantly surprised to hear. He purrs
for no reason: well, for no reason other than that he is perfectly content. He
needs only food, water, space to hunt, and human interaction…anything else is
wonderful and extraneous. A true minimalist, he can amuse himself with nothing
more than light and the quiet noise of his own movement. Perhaps, though, he
perceives more than I, myself, do: perhaps he sees further than the light show
to the heart of not just this chiaroscuro, but to the heart of chiaroscuro, the true nature of light
and shadow. And yet, how can a simple cat see to the heart of shadow and light?
Perhaps, then, it is merely my imagination, placing human traits into the
actions of a friendly, familiar cat, comforting myself in my lonely nature by
granting him, in my mind, a nature similar to my own. As his head bumps my
hand, though, I am reminded of a simple fact. As I gently scratch behind his
ears and he stretches luxuriously, I remind him, “You are, indeed, still a cat,
capable of anything a cat is capable of: but I am not sure of everything a cat
is capable of, and therefore must continue to wonder.”
A purr is my only
response.